I resign

I wanted a father

more perfect than mine,

so I made one up

and called Him divine.

I wanted a father

and so I assigned

those things that I needed

to one I designed.

I rang every evening

imagined His mind

of wisdom and honor

a heart pure and kind.

I asked His allegiance

and I pledged Him mine.

'Twas faith as I knew it

but o'er decades' time

the incessant silence

was His only "sign."

...

So I have resigned.

I am resigned.

...

I wanted a father

more perfect than mine

so I made one up

and called him divine

I wanted a father

and so I assigned

goodness

grace

mercy

kindness

healing

justice

Love.

But I have resigned.

I am resigned.

Samsara

Take me to the water

for that's where Pisces go

Let Aries flame 'neath the crust

Let Gemini winds blow.

Return me to the water

a pisces fully claimed

by darkness that I never left

- the oubliette to which I'm cleft -

despite bipedal gain.

Return me to the water

that I might be reborn

Not as ashes of the earth

no more of Capricorn!

Leave me to the water

for that's where Pisces die

the currents there compose my wake

Samsara standing by.