I think about Vivien a lot these days. I wonder if she would have been okay if not for the shocks. I wonder how many lives "modern" medicine has ruined. And yes, of course, I know... there are many it has saved.
Still, I can't help lamenting Vivien's fate. I can't help lamenting my own and the fates of others who were the "rare" cases of disastrous medical calamity.
I really need prayers, guys. I've had more than a year now to find the words to convey what is happening to me. They fail. For you can't write horror in words. Not really.
Maybe if enough people ask on my behalf... maybe then God or the Fates or the Universe will agree to mercy and healing.
For perhaps the first time in my life, I wish I were nothing at all like Vivien Leigh.